Watched My Girl and I tonight. A Korean movie starring Cha Tae Hyun and Song Hae Kyo. About lost of first love.. the genre is very similar to many Korean movies, only that this time round, this is actually the remake of the very popular Japanese movie, "Crying Out from the Centre of World". The movie was ok but not great.
Su Ho, a simple, ordinary teenager, and Su En, the prettiest girl in the local village fell in love with each other. The first hlaf was fairly funny as it was the about them dating. Then one day, Su Ho discovered that Su En had leukemia. The rest of the movie is when you're supposed to bring out your hankies. Which I didn't.
But it did bring about much thoughts. Perhaps because at this age, as my ex-boss/ mentor once told me, is when you start hearing about deaths and regrets from friends.
What brought about this thought? The grandfather scene.
When Su Ho's grandfather, as an undertaker, had to prepare for the funeral of his first love.
In that cold room, as he embalmed her, and then slowly caressed her, he said: "We finally meet again. Why is it so so difficult for us to meet? In my next life, I want to be with you again. Please wait for me. It will not be long before I join you."
In those few lines are a thousand regrets. Many would say it's sad to loose after loving. But it is even sadder when you could never be with the one that you love and live with regrets of "what if.."
I've always loved this song by George Lam in the movie Passion (http://www.cinematheque.bc.ca/archives/ja98chff.html)
Most Loved - 最愛
Seeking our love in this world, hoping to be together when we find it
But after spending half a life span together
I am now regretting
I left her for you, retaining love but also guilt
The heart that stayed with you is now broken
Yet she is in my dreams
Why do we hope to meet again after parting
Why is it tatseless like water when we could be each other
How do we go on,, can't I get it right?
What is love, who do I really love?
May each day pass like dream, silence amongst the wind
Who is my greatest love
Is there a right answer
When I was 20, the world stretched before me, now it is no longer so. No, I don't have regrets. I have been lucky. But in the often bustling world that we live each day, I sometimes do wish the world could slow down just a little. Sometimes I forget. What a miracle it is to meet the one I love, to have my family and to have known the many friends and people along the way.
Chinese calls this 缘分.
I think I must have done well in my previous life.